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IF I EVER FEEL BETTER

Phoenix

2001

They say an end can be a start.

Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive.

It's like a bad day that never ends.

I feel the chaos around me.

A thing I don't try to deny,

I'd better learn to accept that:

There are things in my life that I can't control.

They say love ain't nothing but a sore.

I don't even know what love is...

Too many tears have had to fall.

Don't you know? I'm so tired of it all.

I have known terror dizzy spells,

Finding out the secrets words won't tell.

Whatever it is it can't be named.

There's a part of my world that' s fading away...

You know I don't want to be clever,

To be brilliant or superior.

True like ice, true like fire.

Now I know that a breeze can blow me away...

Now I know there's much more dignity,

In defeat than in the brightest victory.

I'm losing my balance on the tight rope.

Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please.

Hang on to the good days.

I can lean on my friends.

They help me going through hard times.

But I'm feeding the enemy.

I'm in league with the foe.

Blame me for what's happening.

I can't try, I can't try, I can't try.

No one knows the hard times I went through.

If happiness came I miss the call.

The stormy days ain't over.

I've tried and lost know I think that I pay the cost.

Now I've watched all my castles fall.

They were made of dust, after all.

Someday all this mess will make me laugh.

I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait.

It's like somebody took my place.

I ain't even playing my own game...

The rules have changed well I didn't know.

There are things in my life I can't control...

I feel the chaos around me.

A thing I don't try to deny.

I'd better learn to accept that,

There's a part of my life that will go away.

Dark is the night, cold is the ground.

In the circular solitude of my heart.

As one who strives a hill to climb,

I am sure I'll come through I don't know how.

They say an end can be a start.

Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive.

I'm losing my balance on the tight rope.

Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...

If I ever feel better,

Remind me to spend some good time with you.

You can give me your number.

When it's all over I'll let you know.